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[08 Oct 2005|11:35am] |
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Why do i have to like him?Its like i cant stop he has something about hi8m and i have no clue what it is i just wish hed feel the same sometimes i think he does and then others its like hi who are you.Hes like the i wouldnt say perfect guy actually hes the complete oppisite from most the guys i like,but theres something about him and i need to stop because he likes her or doesnt or i dunno you can never ever take him serious all i know is i wish i wouldnt of hung out with him cuz now i cant stop thinking about him at all and its driving me crazy and its more i think im afriad cuz last time we hung out i was like aww i like him or w/e and he didnt feel the same i think i dunno theres no point in upsetting myself anyway whats gonna happen will happen but right now i love having a crush on him and if thats all it is then owell thats all it is its still fun omg i always contrdict myself in these things i need to stop but im gonna go
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| holy update |
[05 Oct 2005|10:52pm] |
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dance inside*AAR* |
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I havent updated in like years weel whats new im 20 now which is cool. I actually lovvvve my job its easy and when were bored we make fun of ppl. Ummm Lately ive been working alot im gonna get a new car woowoo i want a black or sliver chevy cobalt how hot am i gonna look in that. So HANSON is coming out with a new cde oct11 im so there and theyre coming to concert but not in mich so roadtrip to ohio whos joining me? I cant wait what a nerd i am. but yea lemme know if ur comming. But im gonna go later
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| i found im scared to know you're always on my mind |
[12 Sep 2005|11:45am] |
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collide*howie day* |
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lets see i started training for the new job i think im gonna like it its kinda easy all i do is answer phones and help people do stuff with ther phones.I have no idea whats going on in my head.Im starting to think guys are pointless but were not gonna get into that.I thought about *HIM* for a couple days and hes comming around and i talked to donna and she was like FUCK HIM cuz ive wanted to for GOD knows how long but if only it were that simple i thought i didnt like him and i was over him but im now relizing that im just trying to deny the feelings because im soooo afraid that its going to go nowhwere like it did before but maybe he does like me.Owow i have no idea where this is comming from but i need to get it out so i decided to type it in here.I honsetly cant get him out of my mind and im wondering if theres a reason for it.ok well im just making myslef more crazy so im going to go
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| if i gave you my heart would you hold it like a prize or throw it in the river |
[06 Sep 2005|09:33pm] |
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XO *fall out boy* |
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So im excited selena called me the other day and told me where she was working was hiring so i wnt today and put in an applaction and like 2 hours later they called me and asked if i could start traning tomorrow.This is awsome caus i really needed a job and its at airtouch wireless doing coustomer service and i make 10 dollars an hour so im sooo excited i just hope i do ok i hate trying new things im always afraid to fail.And another plus i got a tat it looks sooo cute at least i like it.My birthdays in 15 days yay ill be 20 if anyone wants to go out lemme know so lifes been good except for guys:-/ i have no idea whats goin on there but owell im happy being single i long story i dont wanna get into. Im gonna go get somethin to eat
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[02 Sep 2005|09:30pm] |
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im home woohoo we got hit by the hurricane it was super scary at least we got outta there now im home and happy but today i feel like ass so im gonna go
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| like a ton of bricks it hit me you were gone |
[17 Aug 2005|12:40am] |
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my wosrt fear*rascal flatts* |
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so im leaving thursday moring at 10ish i dunno when ill be back ,i was hoping before my birthday but thats looking like a big negitive.Owell i guess i dunno im scared and excited.I just dont want to leave and then come back and everything be changed that will suck but i hope i come back ill find a job and everything will go good here. I just have this feeling when i come back its gonna be different and i hate change i guess im a coward. Well i guess ill talk to everyone in like a month.Bye kiddies
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| am i too late |
[11 Aug 2005|12:22pm] |
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i cant stop thinking about him.and now i think im too latei wish i knew what he was thinking!!!!! Yes this is about you if you EVER read it
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| hey "tear catcher" thats all you are |
[06 Aug 2005|01:12pm] |
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my litlle secret*aar* |
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so lately havent been doing anything but looking for a job,no luck there.On a different note im leaving for new orleans the 17th,ill be gone a month,im kinda excited but i think ill be reallly home sick.I hope im home before my birthday i really wanted to go to canada and get fucked up but who knows.So im trying to hang out with everyone before i go cuz im gonna miss everyone but i gotta go shower.
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| awwwwwwwww i like this |
[27 Jul 2005|11:48pm] |
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i wanna save you*sc* |
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Wait for the guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heart beat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in
front of his friends, who thinks you are just as pretty without makeup, one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you, the one who turns to his friends and says, "That's her."
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[26 Jul 2005|01:35am] |
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| every now and then late at night she wonders how it would feel to hold someone tight |
[23 Jul 2005|12:04pm] |
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to far gone *aar* |
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so i havent updated in awhile...nothing new going on really still dont have a job and i want one i dont care about the money im not hurting for it, im just very BORED! Wow isnt life just crazy? one minute you have a best friend and the other you feel like strangers,Im nnot saying thats a bad thing she found what she was looking for but it sux that i dont even feel like i have her for a friend.Not a big deal thats life it just sux.Im like the only girl that i talked to in high school that isnt in a serious realtionship.I wonder if its im just way tooo afraid of the fact of being "in love" cuz that means im actually opening up and letting someone in which i have never let ANYONE fully in.Im just rambaling onand on but well if you dont wanna hear it stop reading.I want a guy whos like understanding and will let me be me and let me argue when i want to and not just walk away, and just ask if im done. Someone thatll just look at me and i know everything gonna be ok,someone thatll do the cutest but stupidest little things with me just cuz i want them to.OK well im done even tho theres like 80000000 other things im gonna go later
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| If only you knew exactly what i'm crazy about |
[18 Jul 2005|07:19am] |
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emerson drive*fall into me* |
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just some qoutes i kinda like or that make me think...
~he`s gorgeous but gorgeous is an understatement
more like you`re startled every time youu see him because youu notice something new in a " where`s waldo? " sort of way more like youu can`t stop writing 3rd grade run on sentences. because youu can`t even remotely begin to describe something, someone so inherently amazing.
more like you`re afraid that if you stare at him too long
youu`ll prove your parents riight that yes, your face will get stuck that way ~but youu don`t mind~
*she said "you're a loser." he replied "but i'm your loser."*
~and sometimes i wish he would just walk right up to me and kiss me, without a care in the world~
*for the past hour...i`ve been sitting heretyping, backspacing, writing, erasing. editing, revising, and scratching. i just want you to know,pouring your heart out isn`t very easy*
So latley been looking for a job thats about it my minds going crazy too but dont wanna talk about that.
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[13 Jul 2005|08:46am] |
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anyone know of any place hiring its highly apperciated!
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| i want to be known for my hits not just my misses |
[08 Jul 2005|09:48pm] |
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only ashes*sc* |
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so yea latley like this week things have been alil bad.I think im losing my job or getting suspeneded which sucks but i guess ill deal i just like money and if i lose my job ill have to go through the hassle of finding a new one whcih kinda sux.My car broke down AGIAN which sucks as wellbut thats in the shop.guys are driving me crazy,i cant stop thinking about him and i have no clue if he feels the same seeing how im the biggest dummy on earth and lose everything.So i have to go get ready for work dont know if ill be there long seeing how i got awaken by my uncle asking why they wanted him to come work for my store monday cuz theyll be short handed sounds alil fishy and you know fucking lisa knows everything shes just trying to save her ass. but owell i guess if it happen it happens. bye kids
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| Even the best fall down sometimes, even the wose words seem to ryhme |
[30 Jun 2005|11:37pm] |
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Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey
Now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now, now, now
Crazy skies are wild with bubbly now
Wind's a-howlin at my face
And everything I held so dear
Disappeared without a trace
And all the times I tasted love
Never knew quite what I had
Little darlin if you hear me now
I never needed you so bad
Spin around inside my head
Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey
Now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now, now, now
I been talking drunk and jibberish
Falling in and out of fault
Trying to get some explanation here
For the way some people are
But did it ever come so far
Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey
Now, now, now
Sail awy with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now, now, now
Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Jack me up and then put me down
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now, now, now
i loooove that song... Nothing new going on work,workk,work.Havent had time to do anything i WANT HIM really badly what should i do?
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| is there such thing as signs? |
[18 Jun 2005|12:39am] |
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so Im sitting here thinking about him(which i dont wanna say his name.),and i kinda started getting sad thinking if i messed stuff up i have no idea whats going on in my head,And i thinking about just going to bed and he calls i havent talked to him in like a couple months and he of all ppl calls me at like 1230.Im just writing in here cuz im sooooo confused and i have no idea what to think and why couldnt we just leave it and not talking?I was good at that and he calls and mythoughts are boogled and i know its hes just leading me on cuz hes still with her but whyd he call was i on his mind apparently omg sucks so bad im confused and he wanted to do something but i was tired and i know in the end its only gonna hurt me im lost i dunno im gonna go sleep.
when am i gonna find a guy for me?im startin to get lonely
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[15 Jun 2005|10:18pm] |
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| Joke me something awful like kisses on the necks of just friends |
[13 Jun 2005|11:53pm] |
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Well nothing new been going on. Just hanging out with everyone.Ummm been woking which sux i kinda wanna quit but dont cuz i need the cash.
i aboustly HATE the hot weather it sucks so bad my hair never goes right haha im complaing about my hair of all things kinda crazy.Im thinking i wanna get that apartment with kristal and move out on my own but i think ill miss papa way to much but im gonna be 20 i need to grow up thats sad.I have to go sign up for school and stop procrasternating(sp). Wow it seems like i need to do or want to do alot welp im gonna go gotta work at 8 which sucks soooooooo bad
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[03 Jun 2005|07:58pm] |
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i got my wisdom teeth pulled yesterday,just the bottom 2 and it hurts like hell.Ummm i dont know what else ive just been sleeping a whole lot.so im gonna go back and lay down
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| and everytime i see him i just wanna hug him |
[29 May 2005|06:49am] |
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so this weekend was fun hung out w/ paige and jessie all weekend threw jessie a suprise party but sheknew but it was still fun friday it was donna and me and those 2 it was fun i miss hanging out with everyone.Now im at home and my throat hurts really badly.so im gonna go.
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